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April 20th, 2010 (07:14 am)
anxious
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current mood: anxious

Good days with a few bad days like Sunday (anxiety for the first time in weeks) and yesterday (Monday) we noticed a painter leaving our old place. This means new neighbors next month which is freaking me out if they turn out to be smokers. Then I will be smoke poisoned in my own home again, something my health can't handle and moving again is not an option now since we can't afford a house due to money issues. We'd have to move to a much smaller place (which is why we didn't put in a bid for a house earlier this month-we would have to get rid of even more of our possessions AND fix the place up for it would have been livable) which is not an option, either.

My physical health with its adrenaline issue can't handle this. I was freaking and crying last night. I haven't cried for weeks.

Been doing lots of praying for non-smoking neighbors but this complex seems to attract smokers now due to the price and bad reviews and the fact the entire management and maintenance crew are chimneys.

I guess it's good we haven't unpacked much yet...

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Posted by: Lisa (mew_risachan)
Posted at: April 21st, 2010 03:11 am (UTC)

My mom and I will be praying for non-smokers! :) We just have to have faith and know that everything is in God's plan.

Posted by: onnas_baka_gaki (onnas_baka_gaki)
Posted at: April 24th, 2010 09:48 pm (UTC)
Loser - Lani

Sadly, the prayers didn't work. A smoking mom with her young son with asthma is going to move next door. She says she'll smoke on the back porch, which means we'll need to make sure our bedroom window and back porch sliding glass door is completely sealed with tape and covered with plastic to try to keep the smoke out.

I had a horrid cry today because of this.

Posted by: Lisa (mew_risachan)
Posted at: April 25th, 2010 04:16 am (UTC)

Oh, I'm sorry... :( My mom and I will keep on praying for you.

Posted by: onnas_baka_gaki (onnas_baka_gaki)
Posted at: April 25th, 2010 03:26 pm (UTC)
Sick and Tired - Eiri

Thank you both. I will need all the prayers people grace me with.

Posted by: keeley_keena (keeley_keena)
Posted at: April 22nd, 2010 06:54 pm (UTC)
invisible looking cat (by ikonic)

That sounds horrible Onna. I will definitely keep my fingers crossed that the new neighbors are non smoking people for your sake. Guess you guys should always keep a few other apartment complexes scooped out as back up plans. I'm so sorry to hear about the ongoing health concerns. *major hugs*

Posted by: onnas_baka_gaki (onnas_baka_gaki)
Posted at: April 24th, 2010 09:50 pm (UTC)
Sick and Tired - Eiri

Nope, another smoking mom is moving next door. Her young son has asthma so she'll be smoking outside on the back porch. We have to now make sure it doesn't come in through our back window and sliding glass door.

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